Things I am doing wrong in my life so far...

First thing comes up in my mind when I think of myself – “Introvert”. I have read a lot about the introverts that they are not much successful in their area of expertise even though they are the master in their area of expertise but because of their low self-confidence and their too much defensive approach leads them to stand behind from the crowd. And I believe I am one of them, rather I think I am the most introvert person as always held myself back from everything.  I think following things that I am doing wrong all my life:

 

·        Thinking too much

I am always thinking too much of everything before making any decision, I like to consider aspect every of my decision or consequences of the same which makes me conscious of making any decision quickly. Although it’s the good thing to assess every aspect of the decision but over doing the same results in making them indecisive. Actually, I am afraid of making any decision as "what would happen because of this?", "Does everyone approve this decision?", "Am I making the correct decision?” thoughts always running through my mind because of which I am not able to make up my mind for anything concretely.

 

·        Too conscious of other’s opinion

“What people think of me” – the biggest concern I have. I am trying to please everyone with my activities and always conscious of people’s comments. In my mind, I always tend to decide what the world thinks is right rather what is relevant for me. In this process, it seems always I am losing my viewpoint and make my decision which I am going to regret later.

 

·        Criticize me

I always feel like I am not good at anything even though I am good at that, and that is because they always criticize myself for my activities. “You are not right or you are not doing it correctly,” this thought always running in my head which results in the lack of confidence. This is the reason I am not able to start anything new or afraid of doing something new

 

·        Never open up myself

I am too scared of sharing my thoughts with anyone, not even with my dear ones. I always held back my thoughts, scaring of hurting people feelings with my thoughts. Even with my Wife, she is always complaining of not expressing things to her, though I want to always something stops me to say anything. I always express my love to her in my mind but never by any other means which is quite frustrating. It’s the habit now, not to express anything to anyone and it's really difficult to change the habit as from childhood I saw the struggle of my parents, my shyness in school which results in keeping things to myself rather sharing with anyone.